Jamaican Transgender Speaks Out – Inspiring

Single Girl Chronicles

Why am I single?  Answer:  I am afraid of commitment.  I am tired of hugging my pillow at night but I hate sharing my bed.  I would love to have someone to cook for, but I only cook what I eat.  I am selfish and its my way or the high way.  I do as I please regardless of what you have to say.  I sometimes do and say things to deliberately piss you off.

Despite my many obvious flaws, I like to think that I am a catch.  I have a lot of good qualities that outweigh the bad.  I am a sweetheart and I give a mean foot massage.  I will make you soup when you’re sick.  I will listen to you ramble on even though I am not interested in whatever it is you’re talking about.  I will go above and beyond for you even if it means putting myself out. I like cornmeal porridge on Saturday mornings but I will make you eggs.  I will get up early to make your tea so you can belch.  Its those little things that go unnoticed.  I’ll do all of that and more.

Why am I single?  Answer:  I have yet to find someone that will accept me for me; good and bad.

How Soon is Too Soon?

Question of the Day:  How soon is too soon to move in together?

My answer is that a month is definitely too soon.  I have ben dating a lovely young lady for a little over a month, and she wants us to move in together.  Usually, in situations like this, I would end it and walk away.  To me, that’s a red flag, and I pay attention to red flags.  This time however, its a bit different.  I really like her, and I think we have potential to build something solid.  I just think its way too soon for us to be living together.  Us as lesbian, we tend to move fast when it comes to relationships but I like to take my time.  As much as I try to explain that to her, she has a hard time grasping that for some reason.  Her reasoning is that she already does everything for me, so what difference would it make if she was here all the time?  That is true, she does take care of me; she cooks, cleans and does a lot of little things to make my day go by without a hitch.  For all that she does, I am more than grateful.  But the more she talks about it, the more I think she’s crazy!  I know I am a good catch but she’s trying too hard to latch on.  I have no idea what to do.  I like her a lot, but she’s moving too fast for me. I may be overthinking it, as I tend to do everything else.

Find Your Happiness

If you can’t find happiness within yourself, you will never truly be happy.  Never allow anyone to define your happiness.  That is a lesson I had to learn.  I have always done what I thought other people expected me to do; like marrying a man, have babies and build a family.  That was what was expected of young girls growing up in Jamaica.  I didn’t know any better.  I didn’t  know that there was more out in the world for me to see.  I was 12 years old before I saw a white person and it was not until I moved to the US that I saw two men holding hands.  I had generations and generations of heterosexual traditions imbedded in my brain.  So when I stared to develop feeling that went against those traditions, I didn’t know what the appropriate response was.  Instead , I chose to suppress my attraction towards women.   That worked for some time, but the feelings eventually got the best of me.  I couldn’t suppress them anymore and that resulted in an internal civil war.  If I decided to a upon my feelings, what would my family say or worse, what would they do?  So to keep the peace, I suffered.  Eventually, I learned to accept me for me.  The point I am trying to make is that I had to find and do what makes me happy and stop trying to please others. I am a woman that does not have to be with a man in order to be happy, and I am happy with that.  Those same people that you’re am trying to please are sleeping quite comfortable at night while you’re restless and miserable.  Something to think about.  Find what makes you happy, then do it and live it.

Happy Holidays!

2014 has been a very blessed year for me.  I wish you all nothing but the best for the new year.  Hopefully, 2015 will be a year of self acceptance, tolerance and happiness.  I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!

happy holidays

My Top 10 Jamaican Foods to Eat


The only thing I love more than being Jamaican is our food.  I’ve put a list together of my top 10 favourite Jamaican foods to eat.  There are so many to choose from, so some didn’t make the cut.  Breadfruit, Oxtail Chocolate tea, callaloo and saltfish, jerk chicken are a few that didn’t make the cut.  So forgive me, but I could only choose 10.

10. Chicken Foot Soup

9.  Cornmeal porridge

8.  Sugar Cane

7.  Stew Peas

6. Saltfish Fritters (flittaz)

5. Patty and Cocoa Bread

4. Fry Fish and Festival (Elshire Beach)

3. East Indian Mangoes

2. Curry Goat (with peppa)

1. Ackee and Saltfish



Coming Out Again

Anyone that trulety knows me, knows that I am a private person.  I don’t go aroung flauting  my lifestyle nor do I go around telling everyone I am a lesbian.  I also don’t hide my sexuality either.  My family and close friends know that I am gay, and anyone outside of that circle is on a need to know basis only.  There will come a time when you will have to come out to someone that is outside of that circle; a co-worker or a new friend for example.  Granted, you are not obligated to divulge personal information to coworkers, but there will come a time where there is no way around it.  Take the company Christmas party for example; when you show up with your partner.  There will be whispers and there will be questions.  My question would be do you tell them before hand or do you just show up?  I don’t mean to announce it to the entire company, but more so the folks you work with on an everyday basis.  I have purposely avoided social events with my coworkers for this very reason.  I am unsure of the reaction I will receive and I don’t want to be stuck in an awkward situation.  I don’t mind coming out again because every time I do, its so much easier than the last.   My dilemma is when do I do it?   Or do I even need to do it at all?

As for new friends, you have that invisible thin line between telling them too soon or too late.  If you tell them too soon, they may think you have ulterior motives.  On the other hand, if you wait too long to tell them, they may think you don’t value the friendship for you waited so long to tell him or  her.  For me, If and when I strongly feel that friend will not have an issue with me being a lesbian, that’s when I tell them.  If I don’t have that comfort, then I just don’t address it.  I remind myself that I don’t have to explain myself to anyone.  I’m telling you for the simple fact that I value our relationship; and that’s how I think situations such as those should be approached. It’s not about them, its about you.

According to the Bible

Doesn’t the Bible say homosexuality is a sin?  I saw this question posted on social media today.  I was about to respond, but though I’d share my views and opinions here.  Yes, the Bible states that any man that lays with another man shall be put to death.  The Bible also mentions several other sins that we have conveniently overlooked.   According to the Bible, being a thief is an act of sin; but there are people that still do it.  A murder is a sinner according to the Bible; but people still kill.  An adulterer would be stoned to death according to the Bible; but we still have relations outside of wedlock and lay with thy neighbour’s wife.  The biggest sin that I believe is plaguing Jamaicans is Envy(badmind).  For some of us are so envious, we commit additional sins in the process of furthering our gains.  Instead of working to buy the nice car we want, instead we decide to steal it from the person who has actually worked for theirs.  Quite often, it doesn’t stop with stealing; it goes as far as senselessly taking another person’s life.

What about the inners that are raping our young women?  What about those that are molesting our children?  What about the parents that are aware of the molestation and do not intervene for fear of loosing financial support from the perpetrator?  Why are we not as outspoken on these issues?   Why do I not see rallies protesting these issues as I see for gay resistance?  Why do we not have televised debates on how we are going to combat the sexual abuse of our women and children?  As Jamaicans and as a nation, we need to do better.  There are bigger fishes to fry than worrying about what two consenting adults are doing in their bedroom; and that is not according to the Bible.

Jamaican Food / Cuisine: Sunday morning breakfast – Plantains


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